The beginning of the end.

6 years have past,
2004 hit me like tear-gas
It started behind closed doors
And ended with downpours

Homeboys knew my power
But still you crushed me like a flower
Never enough
Now I know the danger of handcuffs

I didn’t stand a chance
You wanted more than a simple romance
I don’t regret a minute
Although I wish I could erase and edit

A smile can hide a lot of pain
It can endure while u get hurt time and time again
Hoping to be his all
That was my greatest downfall

Tired of being weak
I've decided to be my own critique
No one is perfect
But I can see the negative verdict

Once in a lifetime
Now feels like I been doing some time
Two years of freedom
Ensured me of my kingdom

The king looking more like a joker
Feeling like I been playing poker
Time has played its part
No more playing with my heart.

A new decade has begun
Time to say farewell, **son.

*That Bonita Reign Just Wont Let Up. 2010*

Not Alone

Listening to these songs
Not alone with all my fears,
We're on this earth together
Yet we always holding back our tears.

In a world that seems to never end
& the days so quickly change to night.
Its hard to find the one
Who makes all the trouble worth the fight.

I been back and forth
Struggling to see what's on his mind
Yet I always came up short
Realizing Id get knocked down every time I climbed.

Like Taylor Swift waiting for my white horse
Losing the battle but winning the war,
A switch turned on I found my course
Im not alone... I've opened my own door.

Welcome to the real me
Done tryna fake a smile,
Its not always easy but I do agree
A lesson learned is a lesson worthwhile.

Listening to these songs...
R'N'B got me feeling nice.
Why let a man knock you down, Keri got it all right
Get back up and roll the dice.

I believe in Serendipity
Not living in emotional captivity.
Bonita's not alone,
Im now the queen of my own throne.

- Tracy.
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